But so many people wait until the 12 week mark to spread the news. It was a tough decision, because it meant telling my family too - as it wouldn't have been fair them. And just hope that no-one blabs!
But to reassure us (me mostly) I found out that I could have an early viability scan from 6 weeks - so we booked this for the morning of the 5th. I turned up with a full bladder. Nervous already about how the sonographer would react to my size. At first she attempted the normal scan on top of my belly - I had suspected this would be a waste of time and it was. She tried nudging my belly up which felt so embarrassing. She didn't say anything but I got the feeling she wasn't too happy about it either. After emptying my bladder (phew!) she then attempted the internal (TV) scan. I have had one of these previously for a polyp so I knew what to expect - it isn't as bad as you might think.
So she popped it in and my husband and I craned our necks to see our baby on the screen, but we didn't. After what felt like hours of her waving the wand around inside me I asked her if everything was alright. She didn't say yes or no, but instead asked my if my cycle was regular. Which it was. She then said I was difficult to scan. Now I don't know whether this was her commenting on my weight, but I assumed that if she was scanning me from the inside the flubber wouldn't be an issue?
Eventually she stopped on a very fuzzy looking squashed oval which was ever so slightly darker than the grey fuzz on the screen. She said that was the gestational sac, but she couldn't detect a baby inside it. Straight away I assumed the worst, she did say that I should come back in two weeks to try again (without charge) to see if anything has changed. She also gave me the great news than I have a 3.5cm cyst on one of my ovaries - so that might have been why I have had some pain on one side. I think the lady saw my panic and said to come back in a week instead. In the car I read the paperwork which said the sac measure 5 to 6 weeks.
My husband still wanted to tell his family, but I felt like a fraud and kept saying that it's early days so don't get too excited. Once we got home I spent hours looking at other scans of this date range and to my relief many others were empty at this stage, and the cyst was actually a sign of pregnancy which may go away naturally. But until I see a flickering heartbeat I can't fully acknowledge that I am pregnant. It's astounding how many things can go wrong, and how many things there are to worry about.
Here are my measurements for this week -
Bust - 53 inches (+1.5)
Waist - 48.5 (+1.5)
Hips - 57 (+1)
Weight - +2.2kg
Not happy about the weight but feel a lot of it may be down to water retention as I feel quite bloated and puffy.
- bloated (so much so that in the evenings I cannot bear to have anything around my waist)
- a few spots
- very sensitive nipples
- firmer larger boobs
- bad hair
- fast growing nails